I can't believe you're leaving so soon... I don't want you to... I never ever thought that you would leave. Leave me permanently. Not for 3 weeks or a month but for the rest of my life. You already broke my heart and now you want to leave it broken and fuck off?
I don't think you understand how much I want to run behind you and hug you and tell you how much I miss you and how I want you to stay and never leave me. I hate myself for letting us become like this. I hate that I'm not what you want. I hate that I can't change myself to be what you like.
I've tried so hard to get over you but I just can't. I remind myself daily of all the fucked up things you've done to me and how I should hate you, but I'm stupid enough to forgive you and even cry for you. Nothing I do takes away the pain of not having you in my life.
I don't think I can bring myself to see you before you leave. I might not let you leave if I see you again...
Heal my heart before you go please?