How are you supposed to react when your best friend tells you that you can have this "guy"?
A guy who u CANNOT STAND. A complete sleazeball. But a guy that she has good feelings for.
Well I burst into tears.
I felt so bad. I was so confused. I didn't know what I had done...
I actually burst into tears because I thought I had really offended her.. did I say something which I shouldn't have. I felt like I had unintentionally betrayed her. I never want to hurt her ever. She means too much to me for me to hurt her. So when she had said that... I felt like crap.
I've never felt like that before.. at all...
BUT.. it turns out to be that it was actually a joke. I really don't know how to handle this joke, I've never had to before. So all i can do is be silent.
I'm not angry at her but its made me think.. for a joke like this to come about.. clearly there must be something there.
Maybe I'm not that great person I thought I was...
Maybe I have done or said things which have made it seem as if I liked that guy..
I don't know.
I'm in such a mess.
Sorry is all I can think of.
