Today, I was really hurt.

It felt like my heart had pins and needles.

My heart was beating so fast and the pain was excruciating.

I think it hurt more than when you broke up with me.

The pain of knowing that you had truly moved on, hurt like a bitch.

It's always lovely to know the person you like is actually a bitch and lied to you all that time you gave them your heart.

To hear you talk about other women, how you wanted some girl's number and how there was a super hot DJ at some rave you went to.. It cuts deep.

I don't think you realised how I was already shaken when I heard your name.

I tried to brave it and I tried to sit in the same room as you, but I wasn't even brave enough to turn my head to look at you or even answer your question. 

I was shaking and fidgeting as soon as you stepped into the room.

It's super awkward for me because I feel like such a fucktard for not being able to move on like you have.

I feel so stupid that thinking about you makes me cry.

I'm so stupid for even wasting my tears on you, but I can't help it. My tears fall down uncontrollably. They still fall now.

Why can't I be heartless like you and just move on?

I obviously didn't mean anything to you .

I thought I knew you, but clearly I didn't go to Specsavers and get the right pair of glasses.

I felt so little when I was sat upstairs outside in the cold. 

Wishfully hoping that you would change your mind and come back to me.

I sat there shivering for an hour or so.

No miracle happened.

Nothing.

It just proved to me how wrong I was to know you.

It just showed how much of a fucking dickhead you were.

One of the biggest twats I know.

I wasted my time and my feelings on you.

Just stay out of my life for the rest of it please.

I know I won't be able to avoid you completely, but I can't even cope having you as a friend..

You really hurt me.

I won't be able to forget it.

I feel so useless when I cry, that I've started trying to swallow or ingest the tears back again by tilting my head backwards.

That's how much I hate crying over you.

I don't even want to see the tears anymore.

I hope you have a great fucking life fucking these pretty, blonde bitches with big boobs and amazing ass bodies.

Goodbye.