I still don't know where we stand.

Are we actually over each other?

Is this the end of us?

We make out with other people we barely know in front of each other to make each other jealous?

Or is it me who is being this petty?

Is it still just me who can't get over us?

You leave so soon.

The day just keeps getting closer and closer.

It makes me want to cry.

Can't you stay forever and we will live happily ever after?

I guess I'm just being ridiculous now.

"Happily ever after" doesn't exist. 

Yes, it's true. I stay awake later because it will be the only time I get to spend with you.

I force myself to deal with the tiredness and bad skin just because I want to see your face a little long.

I wear your hoodie because it makes me feel closer to you.

It makes me feel safe because I know you have to come get it one day and that means I can see you again.

Usually I'm fine, but when it gets to early morning, I can't help but think of you.

Think of how we should be sleeping next to each other, hands entwined, looking at each others' faces that are highlighted by the light from outside the curtains. 

I miss your arms around me.

I miss your presence.

I miss your cute little smile.

I barely see this smile anymore. 

It's like you've totally forgotten about us and you look so miserable and angry all the time.

I want to grab your face and make silly cat noises or tickle you to make you smile...

But I know I'll never get that chance again.

I think I'm feeling sad because I think I'm getting over you. 

I thought I couldn't.. But I think I am.

I'm sad because a part of me doesn't ever want to let you go...

But in a way, if this is how we are supposed to be.. I'm just going to let it happen.

I clearly couldn't make you happy and if it means that I have to see you with someone else to make you happy, the tears are worth it.

Everyone deserves to be happy, even you. Even though I don't know much about you, you mysterious bitch, try to forgive and forget. Stop holding in so much in your brain. You need to remember that there are good things in the world too... Talk to someone if it helps. I'm sure your friends will be there for you slut.

I won't forget you, but I'll try to remember you as a good person.

I'll try to remember how happy you made me felt when we were "together", even if it was only for a brief time in my life.

I'll never forget how dorky you were when I pulled your hat over your face to hide from you and you lifted your hat just so that your lips were showing... Just your lips so that you could come and kiss me. But because you were 'blindfolded', I thought it would be hilarious to avoid you and let you try and find my lips. You smiled like such a little kid and eventually found me... That kiss was pretty special.

Like I said I'll never forget about you.

But I need to see the world from a different perspective now.

No more "me" who likes you. 

You are now in the past.

I really hope that you will forget about the fact I have your hoodie.

Just so that when I'm feeling a little rough, I have something to hug and remember you by...