I really want to complain to you about how I can't get to sleep because I can hear ny housemate having sex and how annoyingly warm my room is and how I can't get to sleep because I miss you.
But I can't because I'm too scared I'll bother you. Maybe you have company and don't want to be disturbed yourself.. Or maybe you just don't see me in that way anymore. It frustrates me because I haven't changed at all. You are still someone I care a lot about. But I'm just a girl to you. A little girl you treat as a sister Not someone you see as a girlfriend or anything. I want to throw you away like how you threw everything we had before Easter down the drain. Fuck you. Argh I want to give up but can't physically do it. Fuck myself.