I don't want you to leave. Can you stay for me please? Can we not just live happily ever after? I want to just be chilling next to you, sticking my feet under your legs as I lay on the sofa, playing the songs on your laptop with you scolding me when I refuse to play Gotan Project and skip a song you love. Can't we live like that? Just enjoying each other's company? The only reason why I keep your hoodie and tshirt is not because I like the clothing. The only reason is that it makes everything seem real. When you said you missed me. When you were so sweet and lovely. It makes the kisses, the cuddles, the mornings we spent together seem real and not something I imagined. It makes me feel closer to you too, like a part of you is with me, even when you aren't. I remember us too well that sometimes I close my eyes and imagine you lying next to me, sleeping like a hedgehog. How sad. How pathetic. I seem to pity myself and loathe myself more everyday. I get so attached to people so easily and so when someone like you has to leave me, I feel like a little bit of my heart just disappears. When people ask me if I like you or love you, I deny it but deep down I think I always will. I just hope you don't forget me when you leave. I know you hate it here but I hope I made it better, even just a little, will make me happy. Hearing you tell us yesterday how you actually felt and how you have plans and you are reflecting on your life, made me realise how wrong I was... You need to go. You need to be who you are. You need to be the stupid Portuguese kid I learnt to like. All I'm asking for is a bit more time together, a few more memories where I can treasure them in my brain forever. Just that. Can you make it happen please?