I don't know why but recently I keep dreaming these bizarre dreams. They're dreams of you apologising to me or sending me random songs. I'm trying my best to erase you from my life, but you keep coming back to haunt me, just as I think I've made the right decision to move on. 

The other day, I accidentally sent you a random thumbs up on Facebook chat. I have never freaked out or panicked so much. I wanted the ground to eat me up. Just why. Why did it have to be you? Why couldn't I have messaged someone else? Eugh. The first thing after I tell you that I fucking love you and you ignore my letter, I send you a great big fat thumbs up. I want to shrivel up and cry. Why am I even like this? I'm still that pathetic loser who can't seem to forget about you. Time after time, you shoot me down, yet I'm still here waiting for you to change your mind again. Fuck me. Fuck my brain. Fuck you for fucking up my brain. Fuck everything.