Wednesday, 20 November 2013

Today was our first proper "fight". I don't know how to define it, it wasn't a full blown yelling fight but I was pissed. 

I understand people need their space and their freedom to do what they need to do. It can be suffocating and offputting when someone is constantly there. I just didn't expect that kind of reaction, seeing as I just said how I miss you when I don't see you... It was kind of like my heart was thrown back in my face. I didn't like how you just assumed that I would get bored of you. What girl do you take me for? I know you've had bad experiences and bad relationships which will have an effect on you and I don't blame you at all for that. But for me, I just want a fresh start. Forget those bad relationships, I'm not with you to hurt you. I'm with you cos I love you. Never have I been so upset and cried like this before. Please understand. And I know I'm new at this whole dating thing, but it doesn't mean I don't know anything. I've been hurt too in the past but I'm trying to not let that affect us now. We'll be different I'm sure. So please let's just start again?